2018: New Years Resolutions

So it’s 2018, 365 new days, 365 new chances. My 2017 was full of memories, but now it’s time to look forward to the year ahead.

  1. Look after my health, both mental and physical.
    I plan to eat healthier, try to get more exercise – including walking to and from work more rather than getting the bus – and just generally keep myself in better shape. In terms of my mental health I plan to make sure not to put myself under any more pressure than is necessary, not to allow myself to get into situations that are bad for my mental health, and to always take rest days when I need them because nothing is more important than mental health.
  2. Complete the ‘1p Saving Challenge’.
    You may have heard of this before, it’s where you save 1p on day one, 2p on day 2, 3p on day 3 etc. so by day 365 you save £3.65, meaning by the end of the year you’ve saved just over £650! There are many ways you can do this, save in cash or bank transfers (perhaps weekly) if it’s easier. However the way I’m doing it is to set up a second PayPal account and I’m sending myself the money every day and I’ve got a chart – the one I used is here, scroll down to find the pdf – so that I can cross off each day. I am awful at saving so I think this is going to be perfect to keep me motivated to save!
  3. Stop giving people more chances than they deserve.
    All my life I’ve been too trusting of people and thought the best of people even when they’ve shown me the worst of them. I’ve always given people more chances than they deserve, but not anymore. I’m thinking something along the lines of 3 strikes and they’re out because I can’t be dealing with people who don’t appreciate my friendship.
  4. Clear out my social media following/friends.
    In relation to the previous point, anyone who doesn’t deserve to be in my life will be unfriended/unfollowed, as well as people who I just don’t interact with anymore. I don’t need any negativity in my life and removing negative people will remove negativity. I’ve already made a start on this and deleted 44 Facebook friends but I need to go through all of my social media accounts thoroughly to truly clear out the negativity.
  5. Try more new foods.
    Ever since I was a child I have been a fussy eater, and I don’t just mean a little bit picky, I mean I literally only eat potato, fish, sausages, a few fruits, and junk food such as crisps and chocolate. No vegetables whatsoever, though I’ve always been insistent that potato counts as a vegetable. Last year I tried McDonald’s chicken nuggets for the first time and I got kind of obsessed with them because I loved them so much. So this year I want to try at least 6 new foods throughout the course of the year, so an average of 1 every 2 months.
  6. Spend more time with the people who matter most.
    This year I need to spend more time with my favourite people, so more trips to spoons with Marie, more weekends in London with Amber, more visits to family, and more nights out with work friends. There are memories to be made, and this year I want to make as many as I possibly can.

So there you have it, my new years resolutions for 2018. This year is going to be full of memories, I’m seeing The Script twice, I’m seeing Sarah Millican, I’m turning 22, and of course there’ll be so many memories that aren’t even planned yet!

Happy New Year!



A Break From Reality: Pros and Cons

This weekend I had a weekend away to stay with Amber and her boyfriend, Josh, in London. I had such a lovely time and it was so nice to have a break from reality – meaning a break from the anxiety inducing place I call work. Of course that in itself is a huge pro, but obviously there are cons too, especially when you take my anxiety into consideration.


  • A break from reality of course gives you the opportunity to unwind and relax, which relieves the stress of everyday life regardless of whether you have a mental health condition or not.
  • You get to do things you wouldn’t usually get the chance to do, for example myself and Amber went to Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park and went to the Tower Bridge exhibition.
  • It can be an escape from looking at the same four walls if, like me, you spend a lot of time in your room. This can also definitely help with overthinking!
  • Depending on what your social situation is like, it may give you the opportunity to spend some time with those closest to you that you otherwise wouldn’t get a chance to see.
  • Most importantly, it just gives you a little bit of a change, everyone needs a break every now and then.


  • The moment you realise you have to go back to reality. For me it was the night I got back, the sudden realisation that I had to go to work the next day sent my anxiety into overdrive and I’m now back to being stuck in a rut where I can’t face going to work again, which is such a shame because before I went away I’d managed four whole weeks at work in a row, which for me was a huge achievement!
  • Money. I’m quite lucky because I still live with my parents and my Dad doesn’t ask for too much from me which leaves me with plenty of my wages left over, but for others it may be difficult to find the spare money to get away for even a weekend, although a good tip is if you can, get a coach to where you want to go and book a few weeks in advance – I got a return ticket to London for £12, which is about a quarter of the price of the train! It’s also great if you have friends or family to stay with so you don’t have to find money for a hotel.
  • In relation to my previous point, travel may also be an issue. I’m lucky that I can get a coach to London from my nearest city, which is an hour away on the bus, but if I wanted to go somewhere other than London my options are very limited, even the train can only get me to London and the places that are on the train route!

Of course these are just my pros and cons, and yours may be slightly different, but one thing is for certain: A break from reality can definitely do some good, even if it’s just for a weekend, everyone needs an escape sometimes because everyday life can be so overwhelming at times.

I’ll finish off with a few of my photos from the weekend.


The Shard and the Sunset, taken from the East Walkway of Tower Bridge


The view to the East of Tower Bridge, including HMS Belfast, taken from the East Walkway.


Tower Bridge


The Shard


The London Eye



International Day of the Girl: Messages to my Younger Self

This is a late post as the International Day of the Girl was yesterday, but I’ve only just got the chance to write and also I was waiting for permission to use the below image – Thanks to @stepstohappyness on Instagram.

Dear 4 year old me,

Starting primary school is going to be scary, and unfortunately you’re going to be bullied throughout, but you are stronger than you think. You will cry, and you will have days where you don’t want to go to school because of the fear, but you can do it. By the time you leave you’ll only have a few friends, and those friendships won’t last past high school, but treasure them. Friendships forged when you’re young are some of the most important.

Dear 11 year old me,

You’re starting high school now and the next 5 years will be the best years of your life. You will make lots of friends, some will come and go, others will be lifelong. You will have a ridiculous crush on your year 7 form tutor and future maths teacher, but go with it, you’ll get some hilarious memories out of it that you and Amber will still be talking about in 2017.

Dear 16 year old me,

High school is almost over, and you’ll soon be starting college, it won’t be as bad as you think, I promise. You got attached again over the last couple of years, but don’t worry, you didn’t fuck it up this time! You’re about to start losing some of your friends due to going to different colleges, but honestly they’re the ones that aren’t worth your time anymore anyway – give it a few years and you’ll see what horrible people some of them become. Before you turn 17 you’re going to get a boyfriend – no this is not a joke – he will be lovely and you’ll be so so happy for almost 2 years, in the end it’s just not going to work but make the most of it and learn from it, you’ll then know what it is you want from a relationship in the future, and yes you’ll miss him like crazy but I promise you will get over him and move on.

Dear 18 year old me,

Wooo you can legally drink alcohol! Time for nights out in Spoons with “friends” – only one of which you’re actually still friends with at 21, see above for the reason. You’ve also now finished college – Freedom! Or not. You’re now going to be under the government’s rules for 2 years but you’re going to get a job in the chocolate factory so don’t panic! On the downside though it’s going to make your anxiety worse. Also when you turn 19 you’re going to meet a dick that you become friends with benefits with and he is going to hurt you so much, you’ll give him more chances than he deserves but you won’t be able to bring yourself to cut ties with him, but you don’t have to worry, he does it himself in June 2017. Then you’re free to live the rest of your life without him! Ps. You’re going to see The Script when you’re 21!!


Dear future me,

You have got this! Things will work out. You can beat your anxiety and have a normal life. I believe in you. Also, don’t ever let Amber go, she’s the best friend you’ll ever have.


“Normal” is Just a Social Construct

Those of you who follow my blog may have seen a post where I briefly mentioned this (if not, see it here). But now, to coincide with World Mental Health day I wanted to write about it in more detail – a spur of the moment decision whilst preparing an Instagram post last night.

Every one of us is a little messed up in our own way, with or without a mental illness. But we are also all under huge pressure to fit into society’s idea of “normal”, but I’m here to tell you that “normal” doesn’t exist. It’s simply a social construct that not a single one of us is obligated to conform to.


Oxford Dictionary’s definition of ‘normal’.

I googled the definition of normal, expecting to find the top one. What I didn’t expect is that second one. It is completely unfair to label someone with a disability, be it physical or mental, as not “normal”. If we look at it another way, whatever their life is like, is their “normal”, it may be different to your “normal”, but it’s so so unfair to label them just because their life is different to yours.

If you really want to be “normal” then feel free, but those of you that don’t, please don’t feel pressured to be someone you’re not. Every one of us is different, and as I mentioned above, we’re all a little messed up in our own way, but you know what? That’s what makes us all unique. Imagine how boring we would all be if we all met society’s criteria for “normal”. Me for example, I’m a little on the chubby side (UK size 16-18 to be exact), not the best looking, a little weird, have anxiety and I’m definitely not “normal”, but that doesn’t matter. I am me. And before you go judging, take a look at yourself and ask yourself how “normal” you really are. Perhaps you’re closer to the “normal” criteria than me, but I guarantee that the real you doesn’t actually fit that criteria.

Be yourself, and fuck everyone else. In the end, those that deserve to be in your life will appreciate the person you are and never judge you or make you feel pressured to conform to “normality”. As long as you’re happy, that’s all that matters.

To reiterate, “normal” is a social construst and you are not obligated to conform to it. Be yourself.

I hope everyone has had a lovely day. Happy World Mental Health Day!


I Suck At Blogging

Hello to those few people who actually follow my blog! I apologise that I haven’t posted for like a month – possibly longer, I’m really not sure at this point!

I really struggle with thinking of things to write about, and when I do have a good idea I either don’t have the time to write it or don’t have the motivation so whilst I feel like writing I’m just checking in as a little filler post before I hopefully try to post a bit more.

Since my last post I’ve returned to work; I’ve been back for just over a month but I’ve currently got some time off because I had some holiday to use up. It’s not been too bad, though I did have an anxiety attack on my second day back which was pretty horrible, and there have been a couple of other issues since then too.

If you follow my blog or any of my social media accounts you’ll know that my life is quite boring and that there really isn’t much else to say. Though I must mention that I got tickets to see my favourite band next year! I’m off to see The Script at the O2 in London with Amber next February!

I must also mention that I created a secondary Instagram account to focus on my mental health – which I post on much more frequently than here – so if you’d like to check it out here is the link.

For now I will love you and leave you but I will be back.